New Beginnings...

Well, I'm here in Nashville. I've been here for almost a week. I haven't really met anyone, other than salesmen at the various stores I've shopped. But so far, things are going well. New things I've done (or mostly bought):
- Custom ordered a couch, charcoal gray microfiber with a merlot finish for the wooden legs.
- Purchased a new mattress/box spring, but haven't decided upon a head board/foot board yet.
- Bought a brand new washer and dryer, delivered yesterday
- Spent a lot of money on a Macbook computer
- Drove to the outer regions of Nashville to get a driver's license, then to another part to get the emissions checked on my car, then to another spot to get my new license plates
- Dealing with new apartment management, who is offended over any small problem I find with the apartment. There's not been much wrong, only typical things that you see in any apartment, but management's been touchy about anything I find, like they can't believe that I'd find anything wrong at all!
I'm only about half un-packed, as my apartment is smaller than I expected and I'm struggling to find space for everything.

I start my job on Monday. I'm glad I'll have something to do other than unpacking and shopping. I've stayed busy enough that I haven't had to deal with lonliness yet, at least until last night. Last night was my first Thursday night away from my Survivor family. Though I couldn't miss the shows, they were still hard to watch and even harder to laugh at without everyone around. I started to say something once and actually stopped myself so I wouldn't break the rules of no talking, even though no one was there to shush me.

I still feel this is where God wants me, but I think there are some bumps in the road headed my way...

My Special Friend

I have a very special friend. Her name is Tracy. Tracy spoils me like no friend I've ever had before. She buys me special gifts and takes me out to fancy dinners (Thanks for Saturday Night!). She cancels her plans with her husband to have one last night on the town with me before I leave (Thanks Tyler, by the way). But the best things about Tracy- we have MANY, MANY shared memories (most of which I have not revealed to anyone else ever) and she understands me a little too well! (Just for an example: at my senior recital, she bought the exact same bouquet of flowers for me that my mom and I had picked out as the centerpiece for the reception table.)

Tracy, I'm not trying to make you cry (though I'm tearing up right now), but I will miss you VERY much! Your friendship has and always will mean so much to me. I hope you can visit soon. (And no, you cannot share those stories with anyone else!)

Countdown

Well, the countdown until my move has officially begun. I say goodbye to DM one week from today. Today is the last Friday I will work at my current job. Tonight is the last dinner I will have with all my DM girlfriends. It will be a week of lasts and goodbyes. How can someone be so sad and so excited all at the same time? 'Cause that's how I'm feeling. I know I'm going to probably cry a lot this week (tears well just thinking about it). I know I'm going to terribly miss so many loved ones- people who have shared their hearts, souls and lives with me (see previous blog). But I'm also excited for the new adventure that lays before me, despite the uncertainty it holds.

I want to give a big shout of THANKS to all the people that helped to make my birthday extra special. Between the gifts, the cards filled with laughter and tears and of course all the cheesecake, this will not be a day easily forgotten. Big Hugs to y'all!

Oh my Goodness!!!

A lot has happened in the last couple of weeks...the bulk of it being tied into: I'M MOVING TO NASHVILLE, TENNESSEE!!! God has again worked in a mysterious way, in His own timing. Who knew I had to go to Phoenix, AZ to get a job in Nashville? I have to keep pinching myself to reassure myself that it's real. It has happened SO quickly and unexpectedly that my head is still whirling in orbit. I am excited, anxious, nervous, scared out of my wits...you name it, I've probably felt it! My last day at the church is three weeks from today and I will be moving only a couple days after that. I have not found a place to live yet, but I'm working on it. I have started packing, but I'm not very far. I've moved before and I know it takes a lot of work, but I am quickly learning that it's 10x worse moving to a different state. I will be working for a travel agency- travel will no longer be optional! And I'll be where I've always wanted to be.
But there are a lot of questions and concerns, more than my mind has been able to handle. One comfort through all of this has been that it is without a doubt from God. Only God could have opened these doors. Only God could have given me the faith and courage to walk through them. So, God is not going to desert me in the details of the move. If only this thought could shut my head up so I could get some sleep!
Though I am very excited about this new direction and adventure, there is definitely some sadness to be dealt with, especially with saying goodbye:

• My Survivor Family- I can't even begin to describe how much I will miss all of you. Every time I even begin to entertain the thought of that goodbye I start to cry. Thursday nights have meant more to me than anyone could have imagined. It is a great comfort to know that we will be in each other's thoughts and prayers every Thursday night. For Travis, you know more about our girly stuff than is right for any guy and yet you still laugh with us... For Jennifer, your friendship has meant a lot, your fashion advice will be sorely missed, and for Brandon's sake I'm going to leave you some of my dessert recipes! For Eric & Jayla, I will miss the rock-n-roll stories and watching hide-n-seek. For Brandon & Karla, Grace & Seth, I've never felt more a part of someone's family (other than my own) than with you; you have shown me what real ministry should look like and you've put up with a lot of my babbling.
  
• My Pledge Girls- Though you have all graduated and gone on to college, our opportunities to see each other will even more greatly decrease. Thank God for the internet, (I NEVER thought I would ever hear myself say that) MySpace and Facebook. We never have to lose touch. For Colleen, I will never have a perfect Triple Grande Caramel Macchiato, but don't you worry I'll still come back to celebrate that very special birthday! For Catherine, you always share encouragement and a warm hug, even if you might not feel up to it- I will miss visiting you at ISU. For Brittany, you always made me laugh or want to roll my eyes at your sarcastic comments. For Lisa, you always have such wonderful (and funny) stories to tell, and your movie advice was always treasured. For all of you, I will greatly miss Dr. Seuss!
  
• Ladies in the Office- We have laughed, we have yelled, we have cried. We've been through a lot in only a couple of years; some memories we'll all be happy to lose, others we will treasure for a long time to come. I will be praying for the person to come (I don't want you guys stuck with my work), I hope they will be a great support in the office, but also a great friend. For Sherry, I hope they won't interrupt you as much, but can still go shopping with you. For Ashley, I hope they can hold their own with publications and not bug you like I did, but can laugh and share as much as we have. For Sara, hopefully you'll get a lot more work done, but will have someone that is as much an encouragement to you as you will be to them and to swap books and ideas with. For Jenise & Kelli, though I haven't been able to come to breakfast for awhile, I hope there is someone who will be able to share this fun tradition with you. For Katie, I hope they admire your style (and won't catch on to the hair pattern). For Angelina, our JOY times will be missed more than I know you (or I) will admit, your friendship and willingness to listen are completely irreplacable.
• Student Ministries- I will miss all the students. You have shared parts of your lives with me and ministered to me in many ways. For Jon- ('cause I don't have another place to mention you) I will miss our banter for it has perked up many a blah day. Keep going with your ministry, God will bless it!
• My Roommate- Kalee, we've lived together for 2 1/2 years. We finish each other's sentences, cook dinner for each other, but never clean up after each other! I hope I have not tainted your idea of sharing a residence. I will miss our roommate nights with pizza, Smirnoff's, and TV. I will think of you every time I watch Los Wages or empty the dishwasher. You better visit me!
• Many other people in Des Moines- y'all know who you are. I will miss you without a doubt.
• My family- I know it is not actually goodbye, that we will see each other only a couple of months after I move, but it's still hard. I'm still only a day away or a phone call. Lord willing, I will still be there for everything important. I love you all more than words can say.

Well, now that I've turned this into a somewhat depressing blog... I will miss you all, and will be sad to say goodbye. But I know without a shadow of a doubt that God has big things in store for all of us and someday we will be able to swap amazing stories. I look forward to that day!

Reflections & Resolutions

I started this blog a couple of weeks ago, got pulled away and was unable to finish it. I decided to post it as is and start new with new info...

I was catching up on several friends' blogs today and many of them were reflecting on 2006. I thought I would add a few of my own to cyberspace and some thoughts for the new year also.

Books: I read quite a few...here's just a couple

• Added to my Xanth series by Piers Anthony including Geis of the Gargoyle, Roc and a Hard Place and Yon Ill Wind
• Read Kissing Adrien by Siri L. Mitchell 8 or 9 times over the summer
• Been working on Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller for quite some time and still going
  

Movies: Saw lots of films, some good, some not so good, but only one was worth going to a midnight showing of...

• X-Men 3

Concert schedule was all dried up for me this year.

Major Highlight:

• GUESSING THE CORRECT WINNER OF SURVIVOR TWO SEASONS IN A ROW!!!

(And for you skeptics, I did not hear Survivor King's predictions before making my own. But I did do my research homework!)

Holidays=Stress?

It's that time of year again- the Holiday Season. It is supposed to be the season of perpetual peace and joy. Why then are we driven into a frenzy that would rival Walmart on Black Friday? Why have we allowed this season to become the most difficult time of the year?

I am dealing with many personal stresses this year. Some I have put upon myself, some I have chosen, and some I feel are not within my power to say no. I chose to bake 6 different kinds of cookies. I chose to go above and beyond in my Christmas shopping. And it is my decision to accept each of the invitations I have received for different holiday events. But I also have strained relationships between family members that I got caught in the middle of and am trying to keep good connections with. Certain events I am committed to have overlapped in scheduling, bringing out the nascar driver within me (both in the car and out). And what can you do about work and other normal events that are still occurring?

I long for a simpler time when everyone gathered together for one day. Each person brought something so preparations didn't fall to one person. Decorations were created as part of the day's activities. Gifts were shared around the circle equally. It was a time of love and community. A time to enjoy the company of others in a relaxed, inviting, unhurried environment. These were holidays of days gone by, when perpetual love and peace seemed to truly exist.

All that aside, I still look forward to Christmas every year: Of course the food is the best of the year and the warmth of hot cocoa fills me with cheer; Christmas music-oh how it makes me smile; who can argue that presents aren't wonderful; the twinkling lights tickle my fancy; and friends and family gathering near is the best gift of all!

Happy Turkey Day!

Happy Thanksgiving!
I hope everyone is enjoying the feast-ive holiday. I am excitedly anticipating the delicious meal we will shortly be partaking as the heavenly aroma of turkey and other fixin's drift down the hallway to my family's den. I will soon be fighting my brother and sister for rights to a turkey leg and investing my time in eating the best meal of the year. I can't wait!
Yesterday was also a wonderful day as I was able to spend some time with my small group girls home for the holiday. I cannot express enough how much I have missed them this fall (as stated many times) and it brought over-flowing joy to my heart to see them and share in their ever-changing lives.
Tomorrow is also a very special day for me and my mom. It is Black Friday. Every year (even when we don't see anything of interest in the ads) we awake long before dawn to rush to the stores, fight the maddening crowds, and purchase things that we really could live without. Thanksgiving day is spent cooking and perusing the newspaper ads. We've also looked online in preparation. We want to be fully prepared for what the day has to offer. Usually our first stop is JCPenney, if only to receive a Disney snowglobe. We have been receiving them every year since they began to give them out and I proudly display my consecutive collection every year at Christmas. Then we head to Younkers, Walmart and Target; ads in hand, battle plan ready, and a strict list of everything we want. We attack the store without mercy, quickly finding each item on our list, throwing them into the cart and rushing to the next item. Then, when we have everything we originally came for, we casually stroll through the store to see if we missed anything and to evaluate whether we are truly going to purchase everything we've picked up. Once final decisions have been made, we head to the checkout and on to the next store for the same melee. Though absolutely crazy, it's one of my favorite days of the year and one of my favorite traditions. We've even begun to train my sister in the art of Black Friday shopping!
The dinner bell has rung; I'm rushing off to our Thanksgiving meal! Happy Thanksgiving & Happy Turkey Day! And for those of you who are as crazy as my family- Happy Black Friday!

Update?

I haven't had much time to write recently. Usually I do my writing at work during the down times, but there haven't been any lately. I've also struggled with what to write. There has been a lot of not so good things going on in my life and around me, yet I don't want my blog to turn into a whine-fest or a complaint board. I want it to remain as positive as possible. But for those of you who get the privilege (if you can call it that) of listening to my vents or verbal processing you'll understand that at times like the recent, it's very difficult for me to find or focus upon anything positive. I just now caught up on several friends' blogs and it's great to hear what's happening in their lives, especially when I don't get to see them very often. So, I thought I also better post, but like I said, I'm not sure what else to talk about.
Work's been crazy busy. We had our Great Pumpkin Party last week- the largest event of the year. Over 3000 people came through the doors of our church and we were here til after 12:30 am cleaning up as much as we could. We have many more events and projects on the horizon, so it is not really slowing down at all. But I am grateful for a very supportive boss who takes me into consideration every time before the job.
Some good news on the family front: My family went to a college fair and my brother and sister both found Christian colleges that they will be adding to their list of potential applications. I'm very excited for them as they approach this next stage in life. But I must admit, it makes me feel kinda old. I still call them my little brother and sister!
I'm planning some get-togethers with my small group girls from last year, and that brings over-flowing joy to my soul! I miss them all SO much. It will be GREAT to see all of them and get updates on life. (Email can only share so much)
Oh, one last thing before I go. My friend, Travis, blogged about getting back in touch with an old friend and thought I'd share a somewhat similar experience. A couple of weeks ago, a long-lost friend of mine sent me a friend request on my Myspace page. I was very surprised; we haven't talked in at least 2 years. I also remember looking him up (along with several other long-lost friends) when I first started my Myspace and didn't find him. It was only a friend request, no messages attached, but it was still nice to hear from him. But it also opens a big door of curiosity...So, friend, if you read this, I've got questions...
Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend, especially those of you enjoying some island-time. I'll be back soon...